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The last two weeks have been a little stressful. Not due to my everyday life, but to to an issue that I had to report at work. Because of all of this stress, my body finally decided to get pay-back this weekend and I was sick; stuffy nose, yucky stuff in my throat, fever, cough. I slept quite a bit this weekend and my hubby was so kind to allow me to sleep in. I love him so much!!!
Yesterday, I was getting ready for work and took a good long look in the mirror. It was at that moment I decided it was time to do a little bit of self-reflection. Try to understand myself better and fall in love with myself. I know it sounds kind of concieted or silly, but seriously, I try to portray myself as having a lot of self-confidence and that I have inner strength. In reality though, I have very little of either of those things going for me.
The first thing I decided I need to change is my outward appearance. I don't feel that I am unatteractive or anything like that, I just looked at myself and wondered why it was me that had to have this happen at work. Do I wear too much make-up? Probably. Do I try too hard to look my best at ALL times? More than likely. Am I really happy with my current look? Not so much. At that point, I decided to completely grow out my hair to get it as long as it will grow. I thought about not coloring it, but I am way too young to accept that I have gray hair already, so I will keep coloring it. I am going to attempt to go more minimal on my make-up. Thought I would go with a more natural look instead of making my eyes and lips stand out. My wardrobe for work is pretty minimal, SCRUBS, so I can't exactly change that, but maybe I won't be quite as worried about keeping up-to-date on current fashion trends. I don't need to buy the most expensive things out there to be fashionable. This will also give me a chance to work on some re-fashions that I see being done on so many of the blogs that I frequent.
Okay, that is the outward appearance that shows everyone that I am a strong, confident professional. Hopefully some of those changes will keep the issue I had from ever happening again.
*I'd like to tell you about it, but not too sure I should discuss it on here.*
*Let's just say it has to do with a man not leaving me alone.*
This is all I can really discuss on my self-reflecting today. I am still doing my internal self reflecting, but I will post more as I make decisions and changes to boost my self-confidence and inner strength.
I hope I can be like so many of you and become a confident 30-ish year-old wife, mother, woman. Maybe with help from all of you, I will be able to accomplish that this year. I know it won't happen over night.
Hopefully you will all continue to support me as I go through these changes and I would love any "words of wisdom" or words of encouragement through this process of self-reflection and change.
Love all of you!